I made a new introduction video. I’m a bit more comfortable since I first made my account. I use this account to post what I feel like posting. Sometimes it’s my body. Sometimes it’s my art. Sometimes it’s complaints. Stick around if you like it. Move on if you don’t. I don’t charge anything. Tips are welcome but not expected. If you tip, please do so as appreciation for what I have po...
2023-08-17 15:38:01 +0000 UTC View PostPretending to find someone attractive wastes both peoples time. My husband wasted decades of my time. My future men must want all of me.
2023-08-14 17:01:51 +0000 UTC View PostI haven’t played with these suckers in quite a while
2023-08-07 15:05:25 +0000 UTC View PostI didn’t expect to post anything like this anytime soon but I was overwhelmingly inspired to get out some toys I haven’t played with in months and have a lovely playtime. I am uploading unedited videos. I don’t do glossy editing. I’m not against it. I just don’t want to invest the time to learn how to do it.
2023-08-02 15:39:19 +0000 UTC View PostAnother experiment with silicone mold making. I was trying to get a mold of my tit hanging but it was really hard! I did get it done but it could be better. When I was setting up my camera I played around with the extreme angle and added the video as a bonus.
2023-07-22 21:57:52 +0000 UTC View PostThis is a long video because I was stuck in place while I made a mold of myself. It’s an experiment and I ramble on about nothing at times. Just thought I’d share the time consuming process of my creative mind and need to study and record my existence.
2023-07-19 15:32:04 +0000 UTC View PostI have been playing with making molds of my body and creating clay copies of my bits. Here are the first results of my experiments.
2023-07-18 21:15:25 +0000 UTC View Post
Sorry I haven’t been on in a while. I’ve been struggling to figure out a way to financially support myself that isn’t a boring or abusive hourly job. I need out of my husband’s house but I’m struggling to do so. It’s making life kinda sucky. I don’t know when I’ll be back. Here’s a painting I finished.
2023-06-08 19:51:30 +0000 UTC View PostI made dress pants. I need some that fit for job interviews. I haven’t bought any since I gained weight in the pandemic. It’s difficult to find pants that fit me. I used a 20W-28W pattern. In some places I used the 20W measurements. In others I extended past the 28W. In between I guessed on the shape of the line. It was an experiment but I think it turned out pretty well. I guess I’m ready t...
2023-03-08 21:26:17 +0000 UTC View PostI spent a little time this morning looking at myself under the skylight in my bathroom. I watched how I jiggle and how the narrow light casts shadows on my body. I may use some screenshots from this video for paintings.
2023-03-04 16:54:27 +0000 UTC View Post
I started a new painting. It’s a long video and pretty boring but this is my process for anyone who’d like to watch.
2023-02-24 01:07:41 +0000 UTC View Post
These were my first two nude self portraits. The one with black background is the very first one. It is pieced together from two images because I didn’t know how to take a full body selfie without my phone being in the image. (Now I just screenshot a video) I took a picture holding it in each hand then painted the half of each without the phone. It created a bit of a perspective shift that was f...
2023-02-21 17:22:00 +0000 UTC View Post
I want to thank my fans for your support and kind words. Thank you. I don’t feel like chatting but I did read all the comments and messages. They do mostly make me feel better. I’ve been asked if I have seen a therapist. I have in the past but they haven’t been very helpful. Art has been helpful though. I developed a way to express my feelings during the pandemic. I write down the things swi...
2023-02-20 15:50:24 +0000 UTC View Post
My vacation did not go well. I am not feeling attractive, much less sexy. I’m actually feeling downright ugly. My instinct is to delete all of my social media and withdraw. I’m resisting that urge. Instead, I’m just going to withdraw. I don’t know for how long. I’m sorry for withdrawing on this new platform so early into my account. To all of you who are about to fuck a fat older woman...
2023-02-09 16:31:44 +0000 UTC View Post(This is a scheduled post while I’m on vacation. I won’t be able to respond until after February 8th) While making room on my phone for vacation photos I came up with the idea to record as I scrolled through my hidden photo/video library. I thought it was a good post for today, my 50th birthday. Enjoy seven minutes of me!
2023-02-04 14:04:26 +0000 UTC View PostI’m on vacation until February 8th. I’m trying out the scheduled posts while I’m gone. I won’t be responding until after the 8th. This video is a painting experiment using alternative water. The painting itself isn’t meaningful. It’s the process and trying not to feel self conscious while working nude.
2023-02-01 06:06:51 +0000 UTC View PostI’ve been cleaning off my phone to make room for vacation memories. It’s icy outside and I came across this video of a summer outfit and thought I’d share. I won’t be posting or responding until after February 8th.
2023-01-30 23:21:38 +0000 UTC View PostJust me getting dressed and talking to anyone who wants to listen
2023-01-27 16:16:00 +0000 UTC View PostStretching is really important at my size and age. I really enjoy doing it but I often don’t take the time to do it. I thought if I started sharing my stretches here it might help me make the time to do it more regularly and increase my flexibility. Here are two views of my stretches. Which view do you prefer?
2023-01-26 19:09:19 +0000 UTC View Post
I call this painting My Juicy Heart. I made this video a long time ago. It was an experiment. It was fun but the set up and clean up were a hassle.
2023-01-24 19:02:41 +0000 UTC View PostI’m not sure if my live streams show up on my page automatically. I didn’t see it so I’m posting it. I’m a bit dorky when trying to figure it out but a very nice subscriber watched and helped me out. Thank you James! It was fun and I plan to do more.
2023-01-24 00:44:16 +0000 UTC View PostI’m going to attempt a live video. I have no idea what I’m doing. Please be patient if you watch. I’m just going to look at some material I bought to make clothes and try to decide what to do with it.
2023-01-23 23:25:54 +0000 UTC View Post
Earlier I didn’t get the painting attached with the source image.
2023-01-23 01:46:15 +0000 UTC View PostThis is a painting I worked on last year. It’s an expression of my frustration with my childhood and my marriage. It’s 24 minutes long. I’m using it to see how well a long video posts. It’s a different kind of painting than I usually do. The painting isn’t finished. I’ve never had a platform I could post this on before. I’d love to know what you think.
2023-01-22 23:11:19 +0000 UTC View PostHere’s an introduction video explaining what to expect from my posts (I altered this video to cut out some sound because I mentioned a forbidden word and didn’t want to get in trouble.)
2023-01-22 01:33:50 +0000 UTC View Post
