So.... Happy New Years everyone

Ok... so a years worth of no updates... literally no sign of me or at the least very little signs of life from my end. Honestly I have nothing more to say on this rather than.... Thank you all for sticking with me and for still supporting me! As the title says, its a new year and honestly I hope that this year will get better for all of you... hell I wish this for everyone honestly. 2020 was a rough year overall for everyone, and right now I hope that your all doing ok!

Ill be blunt... this next part is going to be a massive info dump, if you don't care and just want to get to the proper update of this. Skip to about the last paragraph... for those who want to hear this, thanks for taking the time and for honestly hearing me out.

So... where the fuck have I been? Well as a good number of you know since September 2019 my mother was diagnosed with Cancer, for the remainder of 2019 into the early parts of 2020 I was in a minor frenzy because of this. She has gone through multiple surgeries and though from what we have seen and heard from doctors we have effectively been all in the positives, the scare of tumors returning and potential more surgeries to come in the future are not really off the table as of yet. Between this, medical bills, the whole Corona Virus thing ( which I do hope your all keeping safe and being alright! ), my own jobs effective stresses ( and the fact that I've been effectively pulling near 10 hour shifts daily for .... over 8 months straight.. if not more...….. god I have no life TT_TT; ) as well as other issues of which I will not mention here ( multiple private matter's don't worry ) yeah 2020 was not a very fun year over all... ( Not even going to touch the election on this cause honestly I wanted that whole mess gone by the first day it started.... dear lord this past year was a mess @__@;; I really hope your all doing ok!! )

So then where have I been? Effectively in a bit of a rut.  I wont lie when I say that this past year has felt like a giant blur, be it from all the outside stress, drama, and issues that have constantly come forth from what seemed every bloody month in a constantly escalating sequence of events to just my own mental state over all. I've felt burnt out and effectively with very little enthusiasm for much of anything as of this entire year and its shown. I have not been very productive, I have commissions I'm still working on which in all honestly should have been done FAR fucking long ago and I am sorry for those still waiting! I honestly haven't even so much as touched Patreon in months ( obviously ) and Ive almost all but fucking disappeared from Social life. I've kept in touch with a select few friends and have still been somewhat in communication with those I owe art too and even other clients who for lack of a better term have gotten.... aggravated with my inability to do work for them. ( wont list names and no its no one on here so don't start worrying it was any of you! )  I wont lie, there have been multiple times I've felt I should cancel this patreon all together and just go full silence mode through out the year but thanks to some of you here ( you all know who you are ) I was convinced to not do such a thing and thank you to those of you who did! You all have no idea how much I do appreciate you all! Fucks sake... the more I type this the more I feel I'm working towards a giant excuse as to me not being active what so ever for a fucking year and change....

Long story short everyone, I am sorry for my absence. I am deeply grateful for all of you being still here with me and I will not be taking another year in complete silence. Im typing this because I want you all to know where I'm standing and that yeah I do plan on getting my ass out of this rut and back to par this year. It may still be one or two months of me not being active, or at least being slow to updates but I will be trying to be more proactive in giving updates and sending files when I have any to send! So before I make this about myself making any bloody excuses or the like all I want to say is, thank you all for still sticking with me and for rocking on like you all do! Your all amazing and I really do hope that you are all doing ok!!  Honest to god! You are all amazing and I really do hope that you all have a wonderful new year!

So then... STAMPING THIS HERE for those who just want the patreon update and not me... effectively going into a minor rant? Confession?... I have no idea what to call this ^^; Sorry. But Actual Patreon related things now in full effect.

As Ive mentioned already I will probably still be silent here for at least January and potentially for the first half of February. I'm still taking care of a few things on my end and will start opening up more time for me to actively start working on things. At the latest, come March I will be doing what I can to be active again! So expect rewards to be sent and also for updates to start coming during those times! As far as changes go in terms of my actual content or rewards. I am considering changing some things up in this. I will still be keeping the tiers as they are for now and will post things up the moment I figure out what it is I want to change here. But I wont lie... I want to start having fun here...

I will probably begin to try and take days to so Patreon streams, potentially by creating a specific discord for this patreon and having specified perks for those who join allowing for private streams on Discord where we can chat and the like ( still thinking on this given that I do technically have a discord server but not sure how to handle it yet... ) Another thing being the fact of me using the extra aspect of the rewards in the tier lists so we shall see how all this works out. But all in all I want this to be something I can do to have fun and enjoy myself and to also give you all content which will allow for you all to honestly have fun and enjoy my content as well!

Fair warning, there may be some 18+ content coming here as well in the future, but all will be tagged and I may create specific tags allowing for those who don't wish to see that content to simply not see it! Ill be reworking all of that on my end. But this is all tentative at the moment and effectively just me having some thoughts and putting them out on here.

So as far as an update goes... I'm back... I'm not dead... I am deeply sorry for the year + of no activity, I AM ETERNALLY GREATFUL TO THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE STUCK WITH ME!! DEAR GOD THANK YOU ALL!!! TToTT;;; And that all said... Here's to all of us hopefully having a MUCH better year this time around! Happy New Years everyone!! Be safe and hope to chat with you all soon!!