I Rejected a Great Offer That Could Have Changed My Life

Hello, Kokeys! How are you all doing? I hope your day or week has been good! As for me I'm doing okay. I'm fine, gwenchana teng neng neng neng~ 😆

Anyway! I know some of you might not care much about what I’m saying in this long effing post, and some of u are just here for my good/bad art haha! But to those who do care and are reading this long post, thank you and I love you! 💖

Since I treat this Patreon as my safe space, I wanted to give some life update to y'all (even if no one asked) T w T plsss I just wanna shareeee*

Like I said earlier, I’m doing fine. But as the title says, “I rejected a great offer that could have changed my life.”

So, here’s the tea.

Your senpai got another job as a Virtual Assistant (VA), but this time, I’m working in a corporate setting. I’m officially a corporate slave now, haha. Last year I was a VA as well, but it was just for one client. This new job is my second job but it's my first time in a corp world.

To be honest, I love my current job, even though I hate the working days cause I'm working from Monday to Saturday, 2 PM to 11 PM (PH time) T o T )

The work itself isn’t too heavy, but the pay is just okay. Still, I like what I do.

Now, here’s another tea

Since it’s a corporate job, of course I have a boss. and my boss's wife (who’s kind of the boss too) They said they needed more people at the company...So they offered me an opportunity to work there, in the UAE.

But... I rejected the first offer.

And I said to them, I can’t leave my cats! HAHAHA

I know that might sound silly, but I’m proud of that decision. Still, working as a marketing assistant, managing their brand’s social pages, I often come across posts from fellow Filipinos working abroad. Many of them are around my age and often say that moving to the UAE changed their lives, it made them successful and financially free early on.

But I also notice something else in their posts, they often talk about being sad, homesick, tired, or depressed.

I thought to myself, what is depression if you have money? HAHAHA. (Kidding... but not really?)

Then out of nowhere, my boss’s wife offered me again. Asking for my final answer. And this time, I hesitated. I was tempted.

I thought: What if I try going abroad? What if I could grow more, explore my potential, and secure my future financially?

But the downside? I’d have to leave mahboi (Vin) and our cats behind.

Ofcourse Vin and I talked seriously about it. And I love him even more for what he said at that time, He told me he’d give me 2–3 years to do whatever I want whether going abroad or staying here in the PH. He even encouraged me, saying that maybe after working abroad, I could finally afford my dream home ( a small house or hut in the farm with a river or stream nearby) He just said that after those years, we should be together again because if it takes longer, he might get forgotten! 😂

He also said that if we could bring all our cats abroad, we could both live there too. But of course, that's hard and expensive. And it is scary to live in another country where you know no one and have no family around.

Even after our talk, I still felt unsure. So, I asked my parents for advice.

And that’s when I started feeling a bit emotional.

I grew up not living with both of my parents for about 10 years. Even when I was a kid, they were always away, working. I talked to my dad about the offer and he said it was up to me, but it would be a waste to turn down such a big opportunity. I get his point.

But when I told him, “What if I can’t continue drawing anymore if I go abroad?” he just replied, “That’s life. I used to draw too, remember? But I gave it up so I could work and support you and your siblings"

I didn’t even know how to respond. So I just said, “But I’ll have to leave my pets...” And he answered, “That’s just how it is. You have to leave something behind. You have to sacrifice something. Just like how we didn’t want to be away from you, but we did it for your future.”

Thinking about my childhood, I remembered how I used to feel like one of the “rich kids” because I always had big allowances and food for school. But when it was time to go home, I had no parents waiting for me at the gate. No one to pick me up. and thatsss kinda sad.. (when you're a kid I think)

I couldn’t say anything more. I just nodded.

My mom, on the other hand, said the offer sounded great, but told me to calculate everything like from cost of living, housing, transportation, and if all those are included and will handle by the company.

After talking to them, I finally made my decision:

I rejected the offer. Again.

HAHAHAHHAHA

I asked myself...

Do I really need to sacrifice everything just for money?

Do I have to leave vin & our 5 cats just to save up and be financially free?

Is that really the only way to secure my future?

I realized I’m happy now. We have our own little house. We live a quiet life in the province with farm at the side. We have our basic needs for our work and stuffs. Our income isn’t huge, but it covers the bills and everyday needs.

So why should I leave that behind?

I rejected a great offer that could’ve changed my life. I say “could’ve” because I don’t really know if it would have changed my life for the better or for the worse. No one knows what the future holds. But life is short, right? And right now, I’m enjoying it. Even in its simplicity.

Vin and I don’t really have fancy wants. We’re already happy with a good meal and cat supplies for our furbabies.

Of course, sometimes I wonder... What if I made the wrong decision? What if my future self regrets this? HAHAHHA

But for now, I’m choosing to enjoy what I have and where I am. If I want to be financially free in the future, I guess I can start by being smart with money now. I can learn, save, budget, and maybe watch some finance videos to improve gradually.

So yeah... that’s the whole tea 😂 Thanks for reading this long, movie-length life update. I don’t know if you’ll get anything meaningful from it, but now you know why I’ve been kind of quiet lately with my art posts.

my schedule has been pretty rough lately. Like right now, Im typing this at 7:30 AM, I chose not to sleep just so I could draw and post something, I even skipped the gym today to make this post, haha. :<

I’m still trying my best every day and I hope you are too. Let’s keep going and enjoy life in our own ways.

Labyuuu, Kokeys! 💕💕