Talking about my life until my feet fall off
Added 2024-11-12 15:42:00 +0000 UTCNot a normal video for me by any means. It's been incredibly difficult to keep my head in the game creatively ever since the hurricane, and now with the election, that's only gotten worse. I've got two videos in the works right now. Hopefully putting this out there will help you refresh me a little bit ☺️
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Each time I watch one of your videos, you help me break through one or more of the blockages I have created during a long life in hiding. It always hurt to realise that the reason for why a blockage was needed was that I had been hurt, but if I had grappled with the underlying problem then instead of trying to conform, my life would have been different - probably happier. Getting to work through these problems now helps me open up to future possibilities I may otherwise have blocked out, so a big thanks for that. My parents both passed away this year, my father in January at the age of 90, after having suffered with Parkinson for more than 10 years - without me coming out to him, to spare him from further worries. When he died, I had come out to my mother, who I have known for decades was hiding she was trans masculine - which she also told me without me probing at that time. What I realised after my father’s death was the he also had been hiding some kind of gender nonconformity, and that he had probed me to see if I was transgender several times during my childhood and youth, which unfortunately just made me try even harder to hide. My parents had both had problems similar to mine, and I had inherited their non-solution to these problems. This confirms to me that hiding is harmful - not only to yourself, but also to those near to you. It may hurt in the beginning, but evading it will result in worse damage. I am left with many questions about my childhood, that I have not asked, and where the answers are now lost forever.
Bo Ea
2024-11-17 07:56:26 +0000 UTCThank you! You said alot that was just nice to hear and I appreciate it. Also just nice future background noise cause I rewatch your videos often it's just overall good stuff for me to hear + I like your voice. Cheers
Kataleena A Cod Ray
2024-11-16 13:13:23 +0000 UTC
