Ending Patreon
Added 2024-08-12 19:22:04 +0000 UTCI don't really know what to say. I've never really quit something in my life. I've always trudged through it, mostly for the worse.
Ending Patreon has been something on my mind on again and off again. But, this time, I'm going through with it. I can't bare the pressure anymore.
What does this mean for chitinous carnival?
It unfortunately means it is over for the game. It's just too much for me to handle. Every scene added to the game required more art than I usually make in a year. Upwards of 20 to 30 new pieces. It's a draining amount of work and has stifled other things I've wanted to do.
Additionally, the code base is a mess of mistakes and blunders. I've grown a lot as a developer. However, fixing the core issue with CC would mean another dreadful rewrite.
Are you done with art and game development?
No. I'm not. I just can't handle this monthly pressure to create. It's constricted me as time gone on. Slowly draining the joy of it as everything either felt like work or felt like wasting time from work. I just don't have the ability to self manage.
I want to work on smaller more focused projects. I want to experiment with new ways to integrate my kink into video games. Without the pressure that Patreon presents. Cards of Change was a great project to work on because I only put it out there when it was done.
I may do entries into Chitinous Carnival as more an anthology of games instead of one monolithic project. I still like the setting and characters. But, I make no promises.
I want a refund.
Message me and I'll give out a refund for August. Patreon doesn't give me the ability to bulk refund. I also believe Patreon has the ability to do refunds but I have no idea how it works.
I've paused payment on this page for the month. I'll be closing it down at the end of the pause (September 12th).
Well, what now...
My mental health is in shambles (again [yippie]). It's what pushed me to consider letting go of this Patreon more seriously. I've done a lot of damage trapping myself into things I could have left at anytime. I need to focus on my physical health as well as the health of my social relationships. It's just time for me to let go. If you in the discord group, it will be kept around. I don't have plans to delete it.
Thank you to everyone that stuck with me for so long.
I'm sorry for this let down,
Quan Zillan
Comments
Your mental health is way more precious than this game. It was a great idea and the setting was awesome aswell. I had a lot of fun with this game! I always wanted it to become bigger, but I had my doubts, following your patreon. Know that your work was no waste at all! You grew with it and you gave us some very special fun!
GoodKat
2024-09-04 09:33:34 +0000 UTCAh, dang, is it because of me? I *just* joined this month, I hope I wasn't the 5 dollars that broke the Qwaxi's back. :( I do understand how money can make something you did for fun now feel like an obligation, and completely change how you interact with it. I definitely think it's a huge shame, as CC had a lot of potential and every update brought fantastic new content to the table, but if it makes you feel trapped because you feel you're not "worth your salary", and if you felt trapped by the messy engine making it hard to add content, it's all very relatable. I'll say, though, making your own text adventure engine keeps all the ugly text rendering and positionning logic right in your face, and that's all the more opportunities for mistakes to pile up. In retrospect, maybe something like building on top of Twine (I think Night in the Woods did that?) or a preexisting toolset would have made it easier to keep the art/story part and the gamedev parts separate? At any rate, good luck figuring out how to get that creative bug of yours going again.
Ace
2024-08-14 22:20:42 +0000 UTCTake care, sweetpea I'll still be on Discord and socials for any smaller projects or art you decide to share with the horny masses. Until then, enjoy everything you can from this mental/work rebalancing. I am interested in the CC fanfic wave that might come from this. Might start working on something if I find the time.
JummiDummi
2024-08-13 17:27:26 +0000 UTCHey dude, do what makes you happy. I’m quite happy with what I got out of Chitinous Carnival. Should any other game of yours be released as a full or partial game, I’ll be happy to pay for it. But I think most of us just want you to feel well first. I hope that you reach out either to your own support network or us if there’s any big problems.
Mass Defect
2024-08-13 05:00:10 +0000 UTCThanks for everything you've put out over the years, and good luck on your future endeavors.
Singe
2024-08-13 02:24:29 +0000 UTCan artist making the tough decision to choose their own well-being over their work is never a letdown. this has happened with plenty of creators i've supported on patreon, and i'm always happy that they're doing what's best for them, even when it's hard. i'm sorry things have been so rough for you. i hope you feel better having made this choice, and i wish you the best with whatever you choose to do.
trashbyte
2024-08-13 01:31:55 +0000 UTCGoodluck on your journey and may thign light though shine bright for your kink and passion.
Antonis Thrasyvoulou
2024-08-12 20:07:28 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself, that's what matters first and foremost! I for one am proud of you for making this tough decision.
Trans Butch Joey
2024-08-12 19:23:51 +0000 UTC
