the ridleys album iv version 5.0

tracklist:

1. xxvii (Eb)
2. life goes on (G) !!!
3. death by design (B) !!
4. someone worth desiring (Em)
5. creature (E)
6. god in outer space (G)
7. waves (B)
8. lightness (E)
9. piranesi (Eb)
10. don't buy green bananas (C#)
11. nowhere chapel (A)
12. finding you feels like i've figured it out (F#)
13. i never wanna lose you feat. martti franca (Eb)

lyrics

1. xxvi

my mom was 32 when i was born
and i wonder how her mother felt
my dad was all the way in london
on a full-price scholarship

now i'm 27 trying to make
something of my life
trying to live it right
oh i'm 27 making songs in honor of the ones before
i'm nothing less i'm nothing more

head-on collision 2024
take a breath and have another drink
st. peter bouncer of the club
will i have another year you think?

'cause to be honest i'm missing lawrence
i wouldn't mind joining him in the skies
but now i'm jamming with ace playing the bass
he would've loved being here tonight

oh i'm 27 trying to make
something of my life
trying to live it right
oh i'm 27 making songs in honor of the ones before
i'm nothing less i'm nothing more

i'm everything i ought to be
i've loved with everything in me
i'm everything i ought to be
the years i have are all i need

2. life goes on

today i had the strangest day
i was told that you had gone away
and that left me dazed
i saw you yesterday
now yesterday feels like a million years ago

hours ago i called you out to play
but your mom told me you had no hair
i said it's okay
i don't mind
but if you want i could come back another time

now i'm here
lying in a hospital bed
watching cartoons
and waiting for news that you'd come back
like grandma's begging you to
what do i do without you?

you always had the whitest face
they told me you were handsome
and your smile radiates
but to me you are a rascal
for the naughty little jokes you make

i think about what i should say
when i see you walk into the room
i'll ask if i could stay overnight
i have a feeling it'll all be all right

so now i'm here
lying in a hospital bed
watching cartoons
and waiting for news that you'd come back
like grandma's begging you to
what do i do without you?

now i'm here
lying in a bed i don't own
oh gerard i sing about you now
but i sing alone
i miss you out of the blue
what do i do without you?

life goes on and on and on and on and on
life goes on and on and on and on and on
life goes on and on and on and on and on
life goes on and on and on and on and on
and on and on and on and on and on

(today i had the strangest day i was told that you had gone away and that left me dazed)
(you always had the whitest facepeople told me you were handsome and your smile radiates)

life goes on and on and on and on and on
life goes on and on and on and on and on
life goes on and on and on and on and on
life goes on and on and on and on and on
and on and on and on and on and on
gerard

3. death by design

here am i
making sense of it all
drowning in my drink again
but i find
in the midst of a fall
visions of a different end

wandering 'round town it's a choice
i'm spiraling out of control
a message of forgiveness
comes to my mind in a voice resembling
that of my own
how can i tell the difference?

stuck in my head is a noise so numbing
white as the cold
killing all my senses
saturday nights with the boys
we're drinking, tired and old
i never thought i'd be this way

oh my soul always choosing death over life
oh my soul always choosing death in the night
oh my soul always choosing death and desire
oh my soul always choosing death by design

here am i
seeing ghosts of the past
reminders of the mess i made
so i try
with my shame still intact
to die with every sip i take

wandering 'round town it's a choice
i'm spiraling out of control
a message of forgiveness
comes to my mind in a voice resembling
that of my own
how can i tell the difference?

stuck in my head is a noise so numbing
white as the cold
killing all my senses
saturday nights with the boys
we're drinking, tired and old
i never thought i'd be this way

oh my soul always choosing death over life
oh my soul always choosing death in the night
oh my soul always choosing death and desire
oh my soul always choosing death by design
oh my soul always choosing death over life
oh my soul always choosing death in the night
oh my soul always choosing death and desire
oh my soul always choosing death by design
by design
by design
by design

here am i making sense of it all
drowning in my drink again
but i find in the midst of a fall
visions of a different end

4. someone worth desiring

i just want someone to hold me close in the night
and tell me everything will be all right
everything's gonna be all right
just hold my hand as i lay still and cry
tomorrow i'll be strong, yeah
everything will be all right
everything's gonna be all right

i just want to feel like i'm someone worth desiring
tell me everything about me is fine
put your lips against mine
and i'll tell you all about the things
i'd never put in rhyme
you'll tell me everything will be all right
everything's gonna be all right

i'll do it all for you tonight
i'll do it all for you tonight
just tell me everything will be all right
everything's gonna be

i'll do it all for you tonight
i'll do it all for you tonight
just tell me everything will be all right
everything's gonna be

i'll do it all for you tonight
i'll do it all for you tonight
just tell me everything will be all right
everything's gonna be

i'll do it all for you tonight
i'll do it all for you tonight
just tell me everything will be all right
everything's gonna be

5. creature

i guess there's nothing left for me to say
you have my life all planned out anyway
they told me that for truth there's nothing wrong with some deceiving
stretching out my hands in places i don't wanna be in

you took the only friends i had away
they told me i should just kneel down and pray
making me believe that i was wrong for even feeling
trying to hide the pain, i soldier on a dead man breathing

now i'm craving for life
a little spark to start the flame
a loving word
a human touch
but it cuts like a knife
in the dark i curse my name
for always wanting these too much

so i keep it in again and i'll go back to work tomorrow
there's so much time i'm wasting in a body only borrowed
what does love divine owe dust and clay?
let me sleep tonight i'll be okay

i know it's only right to take the blame
i've lived through all these years and stayed the same
i cry about my scars to all the people 'round me bleeding
choosing bliss and comfort during times i should be seething

and i hide behind a fabricated fame
i know i play a part in this cruel game
tried to be the boy that everybody can believe in
died inside along the way, i smile to hide the grieving

now i'm craving for life
a little spark to start the flame
a loving word
a human touch

but it cuts like a knife
in the dark i curse my name
for always wanting these too much

so i keep it in again and i'll go back to work tomorrow
there's so much time i'm wasting in a body only borrowed
what does love divine owe dust and clay?

and if i ask too much please understand my deepest sorrow
there's so much time im wasting in a body only borrowed
what does love divine owe dust and clay?
let me sleep tonight i'll be okay

i'm just a creature, a mortal man
made with your features as i understand
yeah i'm just a creature, a mortal man
waiting to heed all that you demand i-

i live and breathe as you command
you hold my future in your hands
you control my every breath
i think of you i'm scared to death

i live and breathe as you comand
you hold my future in your hands
YOU CONTROL MY EVERY BREATH
I THINK OF YOU I'M SCARED TO DEATH--

6. god in outer space

the seasons come, the seasons go
no body lasts forever no
we're bound to leave
and get left behind

i'd rather be the one who leaves
and not the one who's left to grieve
the one who's left
to lose his mind

and so
i write this letter to the maker
the greatest mystery
to creator
the cause of everything

to the god in outer space
feel my pain and show your face
oh lord i don't know
wise men say you hear my call
turn this brokenness 'to something beautiful

the seconds pass
the clock moves slow
wise men say it takes pain to grow
well all i need
is someone by my side

and no one wants to be deceived
lose faith in something they believe
deep inside
deep inside

i write this letter to the maker
there's much i have to say
to creator
who gives and takes away

to the god in outer space
feel my pain and show your face
oh lord i don't know
wise men say you hear my call
turn this brokenness 'to something beautiful

i write this letter to the maker
who died upon a tree
to creator
who gave himself for me
who's tasted death for me
for me

to the god in outer space
feel my pain and show your face
oh lord i don't know
to the god who hears my call
turn this brokenness 'to something beautiful

to the god who took my place
feel my pain and show your face
lord i want to know
the god who hears my call
turn this brokenness 'to something beautiful
beautiful
beautiful
beautiful

7. waves

the waves look still the coast looks clear
i would've jumped in already
but nothing's ever quite as it seems
nothing's quite as it seems

i heard a young man disappeared
sitting by the docks
swallowed whole just like in a dream
just like in a dream

five old friends were out at night
swimming by the beach
grateful for the gift of life and of family

but one of them had swum too far
floating by the rocks
swallowed whole just like in a dream
just like in a dream

i sit and watch the waters deep
think how life would be
if i was swallowed whole in the sea
swallowed whole in the sea

would i see the young and old man there
would we together weep
or would we smile knowing we're asleep
oh we're just asleep
smile know we're asleep
oh we're just asleep

8. lightness

this is all so new
i'd never felt this blue
and still
at peace
with everything
and everyone
smiling at the sun

waking up at noon
seems to fix my mood
and i'm
at peace
with everything
and everyone
smiling at the sun

i hope that i'd be someone great
but there's no guarantee
so right now i'll just let go of the weight
and breathe because i'm free to
i won't move too fast

studying the past
will show
the harm
of longing for
and holding on
to something that will pass

but that does not imply
that i should make it die
so soon
these dreams
are bursting forth
taking the form
of music that will last

i hope that i'd make something great
but there's no guarantee
so right now i'll just let go of the weight
and sing because i'm free to

(ooooh)
i lift these songs to heaven's gates
(ooooh)
and ask if they could keep them
(ooooh)
locked within a golden safe
(ooooh)
until i come to sing before the king
until i come to sing before the king
until i come to sing before the king
until i come to sing before the king
someday i'll come to sing before the king
(ooooh, ooh)

9. piranesi

i see you clearly in the waters
i see you clearly in the sky
when the ground beneath me crumbles
and the sparrows sing and fly

there's a kid out on the meadow
and its parents walk close by
father ram could make the fictional troll tremble
mother goat she stays behind

in my mind's eye
i see you crystal clear
echoes from your halls
my beating heart can hear
oh i feel you near
i feel you near

i see you clearly in the city
when the roadwork blocks the way
i see the old man walk the steps and board the train
i wanna tell him,
"you're a king for goodness' sake,
for goodness' sake,
for goodness' sake"

reality is fiction
nothing's ever as it seems
when right-side up is upside down it gets confusing
someone wake me from this dream

in my mind's eye
i see you crystal clear
echoes from your halls
my beating heart can hear

oh i feel you near
i feel you near

in my mind's eye
i see you crystal clear (see you crystal cear)
echoes from your halls
my beating heart can hear
oh i feel you near
i feel you near
oh i feel you near
i feel you near
oh i feel you near
i feel you near

10. don't buy green bananas

you gotta live a little
i hope you make a lot
give up your old religion
don't be someone you're not

i don't buy green bananas
but you've got time to take it slow
so hide your new phone cameras
sit back enjoy the show

don't you know there's a lot to behold when you're young?
don't you know that those eyes will get old later on?

they started out as strangers
they're now your closest friends
so go out and eat together
stay out 'til 1am

see their smiling faces
sometimes you'll catch a glimpse of god
under the lights and in the most unlikely places
love always finds you where you are

don't you know there's a lot to behold when you're young?
don't you know that those eyes will get old later on?
don't you know there's a lot to behold when you're young?
don't you know that those eyes will get old later on?

write these in a journal
go draw and make some art
or sing a song about it
just store these in your heart

i don't buy green bananas
maybe it's time to take it slow
'cause
under the lights and in the most unlikely places
love always found me where i was

11. nowhere chapel

i used to think that i'd do nothing 'til i'm old
maybe it's time to pack my bags and hit the road
there's so much life out there
so many stories to be told

i used to think that i would journey on alone
i look around, by god, i'm glad that i was wrong
there's so much love in here
i never thought i'd find my home

i see my friends
who stayed by my side 'til the end
they told me then
nothing's too broken to mend
in nowhere chapel i live again

i used to wanna be the greatest on my own
paper crown, plastic scepter, cardboard throne
but the oil upon my head is
the very same one on yours

so i throw in the fire all i thought was mine
but, oh, to my surprise the smoke was clear and white
i've got everything to share
and not a single thing to burn

i see his grace
in every inch of this space
a warm embrace
the end of my long-winded chase
in nowhere chapel i see his face

tear down my walls all my plans every part of me
give me new eyes be my light so that i could see
tear down my walls all my plans every part of me
give me new eyes be my light so that i could see
tear down my walls all my plans every part of me
give me new eyes be my light so that i could see
tear down my walls all my plans every part of me
give me new eyes be my light so that i could see
tear down my walls all my plans every part of me
give me new eyes be my light so that i could see
tear down my walls all my plans every part of me
give me new eyes be my light so that i could see

12. finding you feels like i've figured it out

i've been searching for
something i don't know
high above the clouds
down the hills below
but finding you feels like i've figured it out

said oh
finding you feels like i've figured it out

i've been searching for
something peaceful and
fills me with a hope
i can't understand
oh i tried to ignore it
just to find myself searching again

said oh
finding you feels like a breath of fresh air

i've been searching for
ways to justify
my existence here
i've been asking why
but finding you feels like i've figured it out

said oh
finding you feels like i've figured it out

even when i lose my mind
my crazy i don't have to hide

even when i'm stressing out
i know what pain is all about

even when i'm weak and down
you pick me up and pull me out

i have lost and i have gained
i'd go back live it all the same

13. i never wanna lose you feat. martti franca

i never wanna lose you
the very thought chills me to the bone
if i had to choose
i'd rather lose everything i own

i never wanna lose you
the very thought keeps me up at night
it's like a dream i alwas wanna wake up from
oh relief when i see the light

'cause when i look in your eyes
then i realize
you're everything i wanted everything i need
i never wanna lose you
so stay right here,
stay right here

i never wanna lose you
though i've always kept out of your sight
on darker nights, forget you
on brighter days, thank you for this life

i always thought i'd lost you
and that i'd never find my way back home
but in the eyes of love and strangers passing through
i find that i'm never quite alone

'cause when i look in your eyes
then i realize
you're everything i wanted everything i need
i never wanna lose you
so stay right here,
stay right here

through the lows, through the highs
through everything i need you by my side
i never wanna lose you
so stay right here
stay right here