My sports stallion (diary, selfies)

Diary. My sports stallion patiently endures all my antics )))

2. I hope that someday I leave this country. Every time I go out, I need to be prepared for a confrontation. Nowadays the social fashion is to be aggressive, rude, emotionally unrestrained and arrogant. If you are not like that, then you are simply not respected. Thanks God I don’t have many social contacts right now, but even a simple trip to the grocery store can turn into another unpleasant experience. I tried to change my country of residence twice. Nothing succeeded. Maybe if you are traveling as a couple (me and my ego, haha, joke), then everything becomes easier. And when you are alone in a foreign country and you have no support, it’s hard. Everything you earn is spent on rent, food and health insurance. I made a definite conclusion. You don't have to go where no one is waiting for you. You only have to choose what gives rise to happiness and joy in your soul. And if you choose something neutral or unpleasant for yourself, then in the end it is a dead end))). You can go to live in another country if there is a person in that country who loves and waits for you, and whom you love and wait for. There should be mutual strong love, support and care. Otherwise it doesn't make sense. ... Of course, there are certain advantages to the place where I live now. For example, medical care. When I lived in a western country, I got sick, I went to the pharmacy and I cannot buy antibiotics. Then my leg vein ached, I went to the pharmacy and I could not buy a venorutonic drug. Everything is only under the prescription of a doctor. I didn't have time to go to the doctors, I worked as a waiter in two restaurants. (No one needs my degrees in another country, they have their own professionals))) ... In the place where I live now, I can go to any pharmacy and buy any antibiotic, venorutonic, etc. If I need to have an MRI, ultrasound, CT scan , blood tests, I can go to any medical Center and do it. And it's not that expensive. It’s expensive, but it’s available even for me, and I’m not a rich guy. ... So for now I stay in this place, and if the universe wants to transport me somewhere else, then it’s fine. ... I had a dream. ... Yes, sometimes in dreams I see the future.)) This is very rare. These are fleeting dreams. It's like an imprint. Then in reality it manifests itself as deja vu, but I remember these dreams and I even write them down. ... In a dream I saw red tiled roofs ... I look out the window ... This is the third or fourth floor. I see lower houses and their red roofs. It looks like western Europe. I have never been to the Czech Republic or Slovakia, I have not been to Germany or Austria ... but the buildings and roofs themselves are very reminiscent of the architecture of Western European countries and countries that are close to them. ... Let's see if this dream will come true.

2. Mind that is free from any restrictions. The nature of the mind is free from any limitation. Man enslaves himself by himself. Cleanse your inner mental world from all characteristics of the material world. My inner mental world has its own characteristics and the main one is freedom.

PS Oh, Denis Suraev, I love your a.. ))) https://vimeo.com/392884357