The inner world and the outer world. (diary, selfies)

Diary. 1. I finally finished the watercolor painting for my corridor.)))

2. Planted seeds of pomegranates and lemons. The hibiscus has already risen. Kalanchoe also blossomed.

3. The main male gland should always be relaxed. )))) Under stress, it can also be a spasm. I need to get massages.))

4. My inner world, my mental space (as in Saint Seiya) is the source of my strength. I am always in it. My inner world is completely separated from the material world, but it can be reoriented to the outer one, and then spasmodic neurotic reactions and clamps are guaranteed. This probably works as a conditioned reflex and a copying system (separated psychological structures are configured to copy changes in material structures - gluing). The devil is said to have created a mirror. Everything rests on self-identification, on the idea of ​​oneself. I am consciousness. I am not a form, not atoms, not energy, not a body, not my hands, not my legs, not matter. ... Yes, it is difficult to imagine yourself as an incorporeal entity. It is still difficult for me to imagine that in fact I have neither arms, nor legs, nor a head, that I am as a program mental system, as a spirit has never been and will never be at the level of matter, that I have no material attributes. I need to peel myself off from my body and peel off my sensations from my body. When a person with amputation of a limb retains the sensations of a lost limb or when under general anesthesia we do not remember and do not have sensations from the operation - these are all facts that internal "physical sensations" are actually internal psychological and that they are separated from the body and the material world ... ... It's like driving a car and thinking that you are a car, that wheels and headlights are parts of you.))) And it terribly binds you to the world of cars))) and you can no longer leave the world of cars))). Until death comes and shows you who you really are. Or when you play a computer game as a character and begin to think that you are this character and the world in which this character exists is the world to be guided by.)))…. Even when I don't know where to look further, I can always evaluate the situational mirror from the universe, that is, evaluate what I am doing in the material world. The situational mirror always shows the essence and distortion, no matter how strange it may sound. Most of the time now I devote to images of the male body ... perhaps this is my gluing, gluing to the body. I like it so much that it's hard for me to imagine myself without it.

4. This show is so good.   a)   https://youtu.be/JGpReqYpO9Y

b) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QA0SGbp-HwY