Inner alchemy, a butterfly, paradigm shift. (diary, selfies)

Diary. 1. I have already written that there is no need to look for an external column of support. But there is another word, no less important. Don't look outside for the source of your strength. I will not find my strength not in books, nor in saints, nor in God, not in the surrounding nature, nor in beautiful places, nor in people. My source of strength is in me. My body gives me physical strength. My spirit gives me moral strength. Self-centering. My inner world is absolutely isolated from everything. Desires to get something from outside create mental dependencies and a violation of internal programmatic, mental, algorithmic, natural integrity and homogeneity.

2. My source of strength is within me. The transformational power of a butterfly is manifested when a butterfly (or rather a caterpillar) is completely isolated from the outside world and turns into a pupa. Her transformational power is within her, not outside. The creature undergoes a global change, from a crawling worm it goes to a flying beauty, like a flower. The power of inner strength. Complete isolation of the contour. ... Even people regain their strength after sleep. What is sleep? This is a complete disconnection of consciousness from the outside world. This is immersion in your inner world and contact with your true strength. Mental addictions, mental gluing, want, want, want, profit, profit, get something from outside, thoughts that something outside of me belongs to me - these are mortal algorithms.

3. Changing the paradigm. I don't like the magnetism system anymore. It works, but I don't want to be in it. If you are a magnet, then you need to constantly radiate something. You supposedly influence something and something influences you…. "Think and you will have it, you will magnetize it, strive to get what you want, get your way!" -  broadcasts the society of mortals. Buddha said, "Free yourself from attachments and desires." … I choose freedom. I choose the freedom of my world from everything external, from everything material, from any magnetism. Yeah ... I'm out of everything. I can use things, but I don't want to make them my own. I am beyond any magnetism. I am free. When I am free, I am internally mentally homogeneous, whole, centered. When I am free I have no addictions. I imagine the person who established the algorithm for freedom from any magnetism. This person does not demand anything from anyone, he does not expect anything, he does not persuade, he does not inflict pain or violence. He is happy, free, relaxed. He is not subject to any magnetism. ... People are trying to grab and hold something (love, money, status, etc.), but the universe hits hands so hard and so many times until the person let it go. My hands are already aching, I'm tired of desires, because in the end I’m losing it, so I thought, maybe I don’t need it, maybe my happiness is in my freedom, and not in surrounding myself with something or someone from the outside. ))) ... PS. The lyrics from Adele's song "To be loved and love at the highest count

Means to lose all the things I can't live without" worked like a key.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpzmn4ZoB5k