In search of a divine foundation. (selfies,diary)

Diary.

1. If you put a diamond in a box, this box will become a precious chest. If you put a cigarette butt in a box, that box becomes an ashtray. It's the same with the soul. You will attract the same things from space.

2. Prayer, mantra, sutra are algorithms that people repeat to reinforce certain concepts in their minds. My main mantra now is "I am a consciousness, I am a spirit, I am always free from the material world, because I am an abstract-logical program structure, not a body, I am not a form, nor matter or energy. I always exist, have been and will be in this universe. Even if I lose this body, I just lose the "car" that I drove. The universe will give me a new one. I am always at the level of my soul, not at the material level. I observe the material world, but as a spirit and consciousness I am always outside of it, I am an observer. ... However. My support column in the material world is the physical body, my physical sensations. I can lean on my body, lean on my physical sensations and relax. My spirit is always free, because it is always isolated from the material world. "... This is one of the keys for me. But this is not enough. Otherwise, I could calmly leave this body whenever I want. ))) haha. We are all mortals, everyone who was born in this world - everyone is attached to the body. There are reasons for this. Perhaps in the future we will be able to travel the worlds. You leave your body on earth, your body falls into a lithargic sleep, spiritually you are transferred to any other planet where you have a body, you revive it with your spirit and move around the planet in this body. Each body is unique and is a child of the planet, but the spirit will be able to animate different bodies. Now this is just fantasy .... The last days, plunging into myself, I feel that something very important is blocked inside. And this has to do with the fact that we cannot get out of the quarantine zone, the infernal zone for mortals (it's like antivirus software on a computer that keeps infected files in quarantine until the files are cleaned of viruses). I have already dug out a lot of viruses (psychological glues, transfers of responsibility centers, violations of mental homogeneity, etc.), but this is not enough. These mortal magnetic "handcuffs" that keep the consciousness permanently attached to the body, for me it is like sitting on a chain, it is like a prison for me. It would be absolutely normal for me to change body shape often. Yes, I like to look like a guy, but sometimes I could express my emotions by turning into a flower, tree, girl, etc. I guess I'm a metamorph by my psychological nature, although most of the time I would still appear as a guy, I just like the male form.))) ... So, the last days, I feel this block and try to pick up the keys, saying the words inside and phrases, I'm trying to get a feel for what concept this block resonates with. I feel that this block is blocking)))) some kind of internal mental source or internal navigation system ... it's hard for me to describe this, but this is something that should qualitatively change life, it should release from constant attachment to the body, or it will change the body itself. ... hmm ... It has something to do with kindness. Yes, there is a resonance for kindness. Perhaps, to remove this block, you need several keys, algorithms. One of them is clearly kindness, but not blind kindness. It is not kindness to everything, it is not kindness to violence. Kindness to kindness. As if kindness should fill my soul. Kindness to my soul. Kindness to my mental world, to my mental independent separate universe (soul). I need more time to understand and write down all the qualities of true kindness. So far, I faintly feel this key.

PS, One person said, "If you persistently want to ask or say something to the outside world, go to the mirror and say it to yourself." Why do not you Love Me? This is a question for yourself, not for another person. You go to the mirror and ask yourself, "why don't you love yourself, since you are wasting your time with a person who does not love you."  Love is a natural resonance and powerful magnetism that arises from the similarity of cosmic uniqueness and core values. 

"N-n-now, honey. You better sit down and look around"  hahaha https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QczgvUDskk0