LokiWasTaken

I want to give you a life update.

Added 2022-06-01 03:11:01 +0000 UTC

First thing is first; The surgery did not, and cannot, happen during this time, because my loan was denied. Facing the fact that I was now waiting to die was too much for me to handle. Facing down a $25,000 surgery that I simply could not have was far too much.

I had a moment with severe mental health because of this. I was put in the hospital, evaluated, poked and interrogated. Isolated from everyone I know and love.

In the hospital, my mental health became worse. After an extended period of isolation, I looked towards self-harm. My mental health and psyche had deteriorated to a point that I could do this - Punch a steel door so hard that the bone in my hand snapped in half. And this is precisely what I did. I am now in a cast that goes up my forearm, and have to type with 1 hand.

I was discharged from the hospital once I had forced myself to calm down, and gather my thoughts and emotions. In terms of mental health, I am doing better at the moment. A relationship that I was quite attached to has been broken off, and I don't know what the future holds, but I am doing better. If not for me, then for the people who love what I create. If not for me, then for the people who want me to do it for me.

I will not stop mod development. Poise, Ashes, Climbing, they will all be finished in time, with more projects on the short horizon; while I wait. For death, for a miracle, for help, whichever comes first.

thank you all for listening, and for your support in these horrible, dystopian times.

I love you. Don't let the world dig your grave. Shove the world into it and run, as fast as you can.