kinda update

I’m gunna finish the comms for the people who paid already, but the others i may have to put on hold indefinitely. The irl stress and pressure is making things worse on me for months now and I just can’t fix anything happening to my mental health at all As much as I wanna do commissions regularly, I just don’t have the mental capacity or time for them right now. I feel like a huge disappointment for saying that “welp, guess I can’t do your work” but I’ve been in such a deep deep depression I’m starting to worry About the things I’ve been thinking about. Being alone a lot of the time hasn’t really been helping either.  The decision isn’t final at all, it’s just something I may have to do soon. I really don’t want to. My heads just been is a huge downward spiral since midway last year And I am not sure what else I can do at this time. I may have to look into online therapy, if I can afford it. I can’t do it irl, wouldn’t be good atm.  I’m sorry if I’ve been making you all worried or disappointed or anything in me. I’ll keep trying to get out of it And trying to have a better look on myself and the world around me, but right now it feels really nonexistent for a lot of things about me and degraded down to a point of harm really badly.  I’m sorry about this extra long post. I just needed to say something I suppose.. I hope you all are doing well. I’ll keep trying to work on my health and try and draw without feeling like complete shit about it and myself. I’ll announce if I have to stop my other commission plans for a while. I know I’ve been taking way too long, it’s super unfair... I don’t mean to make people wait like they do, just ask to please don’t hate me for it. I do myself already for it. Just bare with me if possible. If you want to cancel, I understand tho. Just tell me. Ok, I’ll be here trying to work on stuff, thank you for reading. Love you all.