Parliament, BBC 6MUSIC & Scones

Reflecting on the month I feel pretty proud of what I’ve been able to achieve in what is usually a month filled with dread and depression for me. I get such bad January blues and I totally empathise if that’s what January has been for you.

I’ve been creatively focused on my onlyfans, have done some really fun shoots and it’s a very interesting landscape and world to explore. I feel like I’m learning so much about myself and the world of sex. I think the world would benefit so much if this kind of education was more accessible to all. I’ve spoken before about my feelings on sex education, we just so desperately need to know more, be taught about consent and boundaries. It’s so helpful honestly. But has also been fun to shoot in ways I don’t normally I feel quite liberated by it and completely driven to raise funds for more music. 

I’ve been in the studio, worked on some songs, and I’ve performed at Parliament! I did a panel talk for BBC 6music that comes out this week and did an interview in a cable car for TFL. I feel really appreciative of London at the moment, I’m enjoying the city. I struggled a bit with the transition at first when we moved but I feel like I’m much more in the moment and also we moved to somewhere I absolutely love so no doubt that helps. I’ve eaten a lot of cake this month, I know quite a few capricorns! My mum being one of them. I had a full vegan afternoon tea at the Ritz for Tom’s dad’s birthday at the weekend! I’ve really been enjoying my food, cooking loads, eating a lot of pasta and beans my obsession with beans is getting out of HAND! Tahini, any kind of white bean and salt and nutritional yeast, lemon, rocket, call me YES CHEF. 

I joined the local leisure centre recently so I’ve started swimming! Being in a leisure centre is so funny cause it instantly takes me back to being a kid, the noises, the smells, chlorine, just it all looks the same as when I was younger. I’m really hoping this can help with my asthma & insomnia as I feel that’s the one place I just really cannot seem to get into a health routine. My breath is always bad, asthma + anxiety leaves me often breathless & I am just the worst for being up late, mind racing, not sleeping. I am scared to go to sleep often because of how long I lie awake in bed and cannot get to sleep.

Done a lot of walks with Stella & Vlad, they have a couple of favourite cafes that they will literally drag me out of the park to go to! It makes me laugh so much. I don’t know what I would do without them, they just keep me so grounded and are so sweet and loving.

I have purposefully stayed away from the news this month. I decided I would when Trump got in. I know everything will just disturb and anger me. Obviously I haven’t been able to totally avoid it which is fine, I want to stay somewhat informed. But I don’t want to give him the power to ruin my every single day. I want to find ways to feel empowered this year and ways to use my voice that feel genuinely helpful and real. Which at the moment I feel like I have found. I’m feeling bizarrely optimistic that the work I am doing to raise awareness about the music industry will have some kind of positive impact. I also am only going on social media 3 days out of the week! Honestly makes a massive difference to my mental health!

I love you guys. I’m gonna share a demo on the 10 tier. Just started working on some songs again. Feels like a good time to write. 

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