Some worries and stuff

It's been a little quiet, and it's a new month, so this means it's time to be chatty and share some thoughts and news once more.

If you haven't noticed i haven't been posting as much the past few weeks, turns out i'm still a bit blocked and there's too many things still bothering me and holding me back for the past month. Even tho things have calmed down at home, i'm still very anxious and it's affecting how much i draw. Now that September has started i wanna fight this back and get stuff done and be active, but that's gonna be easier to say than do and i will thank you all greatly for your patience as i try my best.

I mostly wanna talk about some of the things bothering me, to starts with i'm really wondering if i wanna offer nsfw content in here anymore. I feel extremely bad about having a tier dedicated to it, yet being unable to make anything for it. Mind you this doesn't mean i wanna stop making nsfw art, i just don't wanna sell this type of stuff anymore, and honestly it took me a long while to remember that my nsfw art was originally made for my own entertainment, and not as something marketable™, and i desperately wanna go back to that. perhaps in the near future i'll reorganize the tiers, but i don't wanna bother you guys with another massive change just yet, i'll think about it some more and later make a proper announcement if i do any important changes.

Another uncertainty i have is that, as of now i am extremely unsure of what to do with my accounts? i've been feeling very isolated and i fear focusing so much on patreon has made me a bit reclusive with my art. I feel bad when sharing it cuz i feel i'm disrespecting the people who are paying for this stuff, i feel bad when i make sketches for my blogs when i should be making stuff for patreon, i don't think i'm having a good balance between patreon and my public accounts and it's finally getting to me. I'm not sure what to do about this but i wanna put this out here in case i start acting up and get emotionally weird again. I'm lonely i guess.

i'll try and work on stuff this week while i think about all of this, there really isn't a clear resolution to this post, i guess i just wanted to talk about stuff.