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I used my toy/masturbated today for the first time in sooooo..

I used my toy/masturbated today for the first time in sooooo long and can officially orgasm again 🥳 I still haven’t had sex tho since ????? and I’m not even gonna lie…. I’m kinda nervous for when I do (probably and hopefully very soon) 😂 it’s like I’m a virgin all over again. Luckily that’s not how it works though and I’ll probs be fine lmao. But damn, my anxiety really ca...

I’ve had a WEEK! A longggg week… but an overall good one :) ..

I’ve had a WEEK! A longggg week… but an overall good one :) I had to switch to a new medication again, but think I’ve finally landed on one that’s gonna work!! It’s literally only day 2, but I have no side effects (yet… 🤞🏻) and woke up feeling more level than I have in awhile. And it takes 6 weeks to fully kick in, so it should only get better & better 💖

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I can’t believe not a SINGLE person has ever guessed my one ..

I can’t believe not a SINGLE person has ever guessed my one remaining secret kink 😅😆 soooooo many people have come here over the years and read about my kinks, and not ONE !!! If anyone guessed it, I’d admit it too

Ps: it’s nothing illegal lol, just not common… apparently (& I’m happy to know it 😭)

Nvm not gonna go live bc I don’t think anyone will b there 😭..

Nvm not gonna go live bc I don’t think anyone will b there 😭😂 maybe tomorrow 🤍 it’s just hard to commit 24 hrs ahead at this time

edit: my sex drive is slowly coming backkkk thank goodness

Small update… that medication I was trying took a turn for t..

Small update… that medication I was trying took a turn for the worst and I had to abruptly stop taking it :( Been going through withdrawals in bed for a couple days and started up on a new med at the same time. This one is supposed to show results (or lack there of) sooner than the last one, so I’ll keep you posted 🤍

Pic 2 is so awkward, but it’s the best I got 🫠 I guess the h..

Pic 2 is so awkward, but it’s the best I got 🫠 I guess the headless aspect of pic 1 is a little awkward too but

Feeling sexy todayyyy 🙈

Feeling sexy todayyyy 🙈

I spent like 3 HOURS editing this 😄🙃 I’ve said it before and..

I spent like 3 HOURS editing this 😄🙃 I’ve said it before and I’m sayin it again… I love vlogging and editing, but pls be brutally honest if you guys just aren’t into them. I’d rather not do them and put those 5-6ish hours to just taking nudes or something else that you enjoy more!!! <3
(There will be more nudes too though obv. I’m just a chatty girly sometimes who can�...

I just spent hourssss doing an activity (not that exciting o..

I just spent hourssss doing an activity (not that exciting of one ngl) and filming one of my vloggy things for u!!! Will try to post tonight. I’m in a moood

all jokes <3 kinda….

all jokes <3 kinda….

YOU GUYS!!!!! I FEEL GOOOOOD TODAY!!!!! okay, maybe not THAT..

YOU GUYS!!!!! I FEEL GOOOOOD TODAY!!!!!
okay, maybe not THAT ⇡ good, but soooo much better than the past week! i’ve felt better, emotionally, but i actually had a little energy today. i was out of bed for 9 hours straight (sad achievement, but an achievement nonetheless…) and was productive. and i feel kindaaaaaaaa… a little bit… maybe… HORNY!! ahhhhhh, i’m feeling hopeful. ...

This feels so inappropriate to post. My life’s so weird 😂 bu..

This feels so inappropriate to post. My life’s so weird 😂 but the details of a pussy kinda fascinate me. Like it’s so intricate lmao.
I’m in a weird mood right now. I feel like everything I’m saying is so strange and like, my perception of the world is different today. Not good or bad. Just weird. I can’t explain it, but I feel… strange. That’s besides the point though…...

i’m pretty sure i’m overdue for an essay-length overshare th..

i’m pretty sure i’m overdue for an essay-length overshare that no one asked for!!! but at this point, with how little i post both here and on instagram, i’m telling myself that anyone still here really likes me—maybe because you relate to some of my struggles? maybe not, but let’s go…

so, i briefly mentioned this in my last vlog, but i went off the medication i’d...

Should I try a butt plug? I’m not thatttt interested in ‘em…..

Should I try a butt plug? I’m not thatttt interested in ‘em… but they also make sparkly/cute ones lmao

I hope u enjoy the little voice note 😉😂

I hope u enjoy the little voice note 😉😂

4 of the 364 aforementioned selfies i took 🤠😛

4 of the 364 aforementioned selfies i took 🤠😛

what's been the highlight of YOUR past month or so?

what's been the highlight of YOUR past month or so?

i haven't had sex in i don't even wanna say how long 😫🥺☹️💔 s..

i haven't had sex in i don't even wanna say how long 😫🥺☹️💔 someone come fuck me 🙏🏻

u have to eat me out first and give me back scratchies after tho

i got cut off bc of insufficient storage, but it’s prob for ..

i got cut off bc of insufficient storage, but it’s prob for the best lol…
2nd thing i wanted to discuss though, is why i haven’t logged into OF since i got my account back 4 days ago. in summary: i suck (not in a self deprecating way. it’s just a cold hard truth… but a temporary one that i’m actively working on 😆)

thank goodness i already so much great content on ...

hiii im sorry to those of u who were on live w me earlier wh..

hiii im sorry to those of u who were on live w me earlier who i just left hanging w out any goodbye... i got distracted and well, u know, imma mess. but that was rude D: tomorrow i will send the long term subscriber vid i still owe some of ya... and try to chat and all that. i am making no commitments other than 2 or more pics for all of youuuu + sending out any paid for ppvs/those vids + any t...

I'M BACK, I'M BACK, I'M BACKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (if u didn't..

I'M BACK, I'M BACK, I'M BACKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (if u didn't notice, i lost full access to my account for 3 days) omg... there aren't enough words to express how happy i am. update & pic(s) coming soon ❤️❤️❤️❤️

is this a hot idea or no....?i got a candy lingerie set. lik..

is this a hot idea or no....?

i got a candy lingerie set. like you know those necklaces that you eat the candy off of? it's that with a "bra" and "panties". i wanted to do something w it for v-day, but forgot haha.

i feel like it would be hot to eat the pieces off one by one until i'm fully naked. but that's gonna take a lotttttt of time. probably take pics and then put it...

should i wake my partner up w a bj.........??? it's 2am and ..

should i wake my partner up w a bj.........??? it's 2am and he has work in a few hours so i'm lowkey afraid of rejection lolol.... BUT I'M HORNY 😭 (unfortunately my horny hours are 2-4am haha)

idk if this is weird to ask u, but im new to this whole relationship & sex thing 😂 sooooo... would YOU like it if it were u and u were fucking exhausted? lol i need u to decide for me...

happy valentines day 🥰🫶🏻

happy valentines day 🥰🫶🏻

should I send out my BJ vid as a ppv? i'm reading comments o..

should I send out my BJ vid as a ppv? i'm reading comments on posts and chats now and see a lot of you saying you will love whatever i send out, but like.... i do NOT look good. go see the short clip i posted... that's the hottest part... but i'm down to send it out if y'all really don't care. but like... i look icky to me and know i can do sooooo much better. so decide for me:
do i send ...

ur girl needs a good fucking NOW seriously im so horny loli'..

ur girl needs a good fucking NOW
seriously im so horny lol

i'm sorry my posting slipped for a moment!! like, not THAT sorry (come on, i'm otherwise killin it pretty damn hard lately. and i'm not trying to be a daily poster 😜), but still a little sorry!!! i've been thinking nonstop about how i want to post, but refrained because i got into that whole "i suck major dick (the i...

lesson learned... don't ask a man to take nudes of me if i d..

lesson learned... don't ask a man to take nudes of me if i don't want him to fuck me after

thankfully, that's exactly what i wanted 😋 i'm sure this is good knowledge to have though!

it's so hot to watch a guy jerk off 🤤🙈

it's so hot to watch a guy jerk off 🤤🙈

oof... i might've been a tad bit dramatic yesterday. love th..

oof... i might've been a tad bit dramatic yesterday. love that for me! i'm very much okay though, just fyi :) my brain's been wired this way my entire life and i **usually** handle the lows very well!! "very well" meaning i'm not a safety risk to myself and i can distract myself, not meaning i'm able to hide my mental state 😂 we're clearly still working on that!! returning to realit...

I hope these cumshot pics will cancel out the lameness of th..

I hope these cumshot pics will cancel out the lameness of the caption ahead ♥️🤞🏻

Sooooo, the verdict is in!! This past month was, in fact, mania (actually hypomania, I just say mania). NOT me magically becoming a new person who's happy and full of energy all the time!! I'm extremely embarrassed that I put this on display for everyone AGAIN. I honestly really don't want to b...