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The Green Dress

I loved this dress. It was a cheap buy from SHEIN, because that’s about all I can afford. But it was so cute and perfect for the pictures I had taken for my 40th birthday gift to myself.

The green dress is too big on me now, but I still have it because… memories. ❤️❤️❤️

Too much or not enough? 😆

Play Time

I recently took part in a purity culture recovery group. During one of the meetings we discussed fetishes and one woman listed certain things she would never consider trying. The other women all agreed and added to the conversation things like “oh yeah, I would never do that” or “I think that’s degrading” or “I don’t understand how people like that.”

Then there was me, lik...

Freckles

I used to be so embarrassed by my freckles. Especially the big freckle in the center of my bottom lip. But now I’m okay with them. Turns out, a lot of people like the freckles. 😏

Bath Time 😘

Before moving to my two bedroom apartment where I live now, I owned a cute little house with one of my favorite things… a big jetted bathtub. I miss it so much! Every night I took a long, hot bubble bath and listened to music, texted, and took selfies. 🙂 It was the best self care time while I was going through so many changes and challenges in my life.

Realizing I Like It…

At first, taking “sexy selfies” was embarrassing and awkward (much like posting them here is for me now😆). But after a few tries I started to get better at capturing cute pics and enjoyed seeing myself this way for the first time in my life. This was one of my first spicy selfies, taken a year and a half ago at 39 years old.

Honestly… this image is cropped, 😬 but you get the i...

I Don’t Know What the Hell I’m Doing Yet

For most of my life I played by the rules. I followed the plan. I tried my best to live up to the expectations. Trying to please everyone… until I realized I didn’t recognize the woman in the mirror.

I’m now living life on my own terms for the first time. Making mistakes and having new experiences and enjoying little successes as well. Healing is messy, but also beautiful.

Tha...

Can Sexy Pics Can be Healing?

In 2021, I read that taking “sexy selfies” could be helpful in learning to see ourselves in a new way. It felt so uncomfortable to me at first. Prior to this I had never even worn a shirt that showed any cleavage. I was incredibly nervous, but since the pictures were only for me, I tried.

I actually did enjoy it.

For me, taking pictures like what I’ll be sharing here was like ...