CarissaExplainsNothing

Fine, I’ll Do It Myself

Added 2023-12-18 16:08:49 +0000 UTC

“I do it myself” was the first sentence I ever spoke as a toddler and from what I’ve been told it was my favorite sentence long after. I’ve always had an independent spirit.

Still, when life is very hard and scary and I’m mentally and physically exhausted, I wish for people to lean on. Recently, I and another person were victimized in a terrible way. I expected that he and I would support each other as victims of this horrific violation of our privacy and attacks that are impacting our lives in serious ways. But the last conversation I had with him was shocking to me. I came to realize I don’t have his support in any way and was met with coldness, even to the point of contempt for me.

When I am hurting and crying and someone who once said they “like” me meets my emotion with coldness and indifference, that tells me everything I need to know.

Even though I needed this person’s support in the fight against the person who has victimized us, I realized it won’t happen. Thankfully, there are so many other amazing people around me, including you all reading this. The ways others are stepping up for me to help make sure I don’t actually have to do it all myself… I can’t express how much this means to me.

If I have to fight for justice for myself and the other victims all by myself, I absolutely will… but I’m so glad I don’t have to. ❤️❤️❤️