The Problems with a Niche K!nk

So, I honestly did not know what to title this one but it's a thing I've been thinking about for a while, and the more I think about it the more I push away from producing content. And thus, it's time to talk about it.

To start, y'all may know there is a difference between a k!nk and a f3tish. In short: Some k!nks may be a f3tish, but not all and not for every person. 

I did a quick google and this seemed a decent resource, so perhaps pause to give it a quick scan before we continue. 

Playing in this AB/DL world though, I have come to notice that it is rare (maybe for those out in this community? not sure) that this is only a k!nk for people. Far more it seems to be a f3tish, or perhaps at very least . . . it's a k!nk held high above the rest, for that person. 

This is all fine and dandy however it has come to mean that because I play here too, people only see me as a vehicle for this. They project the significance this has in their life and their sxuality onto me; They assume my reasons for playing here, and my frequency of play, and that it is something I always want to talk about . . . Like that is the only topic I'm good for. 

Frankly, it's exhausting. 

When I first wrote on this page, I talked about needing all of me to be able to be seen. ALL. OF. ME. 

This is for a lot of reasons . . . 

It's healing. I stopped hiding long ago and I am not about to start again. 

It's how I allow desire and creativity to flow, and without that . . . I'm stunted. 

It's how I experience turn-on and yes, even when creating content in a performative way it is abso-f*cking-lutely still about me and my desires being met. 

I do love to be seen by you all, truly. It excites me to know that you see me and get excited (mentally, spiritually, or otherwise) but when it feels as though only a certain part of me is allowed to play to fit that mold . . . that you only want to enjoy one small part of me and to pretend the rest doesn't exist because it doesn't suit your f3tish . . . that, does not feel safe. 

And then I recoil. 

Perhaps there are some lessons for you in this post. I think there is a lot to be considered here. My reason for writing it, though, is a little bit to vent. 

Some of you may know, I am actively (covid-safely) dating. It's effing hard. 

I hold back from even telling people about the dips 'cus as soon as they know, and if they're into it, that'll be all they think about. 

On the flip side, if they're not into it and I may have a chance to explore other things, I worry what will happen when I mention it. 

My turn-on is k!nk in general. I am a curious little kitten who wants to explore and have my senses completely saturated by all the things, primarily attention and intention. 

I want you to be able to see me dipped and bein' cute and adorable and desire that equally as much as you do when you see me in lingerie, or when I'm ranting about some philosophical quandary. 

With that, I feel this page may be changing a bit . . . If you came for the dips, don't worry . . . that'll still be here. But I do hope you'll stay to play with all of me. Trust me, I'm a pretty awesome kitten in all the ways.